Stay Good at HEAVEN

He could not resist the virus,he had lose...
He leave us peacefully last Wednesday(16 Dec 2009)...
That day one of cousin text-ed me early in the morning around 6.20smtg...
He asked me to wake up~normally he wont do that....this really very 1st time...
I already know what happened there,but I keep on telling myself don't think all the nonsense thing~
My tears keep dropping down like waterfall....cant control myself...it is very difficult for me to accept this fact..
After that,i receive a called from my mom,she told me that 4th uncle had pass away...
The next morning i drove back to hometown....this also my 1st time drove back...
My daddy very worried bout me,he called me every 30 minute...(thx daddy i knew you care bout me)
For my bad driving skill i use 2 hours n 2o minute to reached home and i reached home safety...
All my relative are here...i followed my 2nd uncle car went to my cousin house....
Gave him an incense and pray for him...hope he stay good at heaven...
I brave enough walked to coffin there to looked him at last....
He face with a smile and very calm....
My cousin still can tell joking with us,still can play around with us....pretend like nothing happened...
but i know they was sure carrying a heavy burden....they sure feel triple sadness than us....
That is their father!!!!who can understand their feeling?
They act out like nth but inside their heart?are they really like that?
Be tough my cousin~(ah yong ko ko,ah po ko ko n ah boy di di~haha^^)

Funeral that day, the sky was heavy rain. . .
They chose to cremation 4th uncle....
When the time the people sent 4th uncle coffin to a big furnaces...
I cried again....
At last,hope you can stay good at heaven....god will help us take k u over there~

Im recovered now^__^wink~

Arhh~not good in health-.-"
keep fever!!!recovered ready then fever again then recovered...so lame
1 month went for doctor 3 times,until the doctor know who am i...break my record
but now im much better,ppl out there dont worry bout me^^
There is something that make me mad,getting crazy!!!!
I swear not to talk bout her but yesterday night i talk about her thing v 2 of my friends.This would be the last time!!!really last!!!enough!!!
Next time pls don't ever ask or tell me what she is doing out there or what had she done,her life,her nuts things and so on.
Im here not interest to know it!!!I'm really tired with those nuts thing!surrender with it...I'm QUIT!!!! really surrender here!
Deeply disappointing,the friendship between us can not be recovered, and never be...(i won't feel any regret)
If you are question me??and the answer will be I DON'T KNOW, Don't come and ask me again,stop that!
Want to know??o someone tell me that curious to know bout it. Just ask others but NOT ME...
Last few day,someone text me n asked me "Are you going 31 Dec gathering?"
I do hope that i can make it....cant promise you that i will 100% be going...i try ya^^
Hope that can meet up v all my old friends^^maybe this will be the last time we gather together...

Life should be full of challenging!

Once again....
She cover herself inside the blanket...
Her tears keep dropping down from her eye...
as no one knows about it....
She feel very tired...very stressful...
She had choose this way~and now what can she do just can walk straight,
cant reversal or make a u-turn !
She brave enough to beat all the challenges down...it is because she want to stand at the top..
Sometimes she win but some of the times she lose...
She is just a simple human being , she cant win all the time...
She is just a skinny girl,a weak girl...is there who can help her up???
Someone tell her that"if you want to get something that u want,you must sacrifice one of your thing"
She is a very stubborn child,and because of her stubborn she lose everything...
Now she need to start everything from ZERO!!!!!
She already step out her first step...
She set a goal , she study hard and work hard to achieve what she want....
but...How many 10 years does she still have???
and we don't even know what will going to happen to us tomorrow...
Maybe she just die like that at an road accident???
She was born at a good family background ....
Her parent can give everything that she what....
She have the chance to travel to other country...
Her dad bought her a new car , a new laptop...and also a new house for her to stay...
Her parent gave her all the greatest thing but she again and again make her parent feel disappointed....
Daddy and Mummy thanks everything and everything....and sorry what i did that make u feel sad...
She could still recall her 4 days holiday back to her hometown...
It's really warm~(tears dropping down again)
Over there she cant feel any stressful~her brain also not that heavy...
She enjoy every second every minute with her family...
Sitting at balcony with her family,chat v her family....what's a great time...
She really appreciate that moment....
enjoy the food that her mum cook,even just a bowl of noodle with some meat ball and a bowl of bur bur cha cha....it really warm deep into her heart...
miss the days and miss the feeling....

I'm a failure

Now already 5am something,just finished doing my assignment~
Last minute work again~why human being like to do last mininute work?
Wat's next???Burn the mid night oil again!hehe...my style~i trying my best to change~
suddently feel like l'm a failure...don't know why i have this kind of feeling-.-"
What is the reason for life n it seem like we just live to wait die...my world is black ,grey and white colour,not rainbow colour...
I wonder why the ppl out there said life is meaningful n life is colourful?They always thing positive?
I think i ard tough enough to beat all the challenges down...
some ppl even dare not to step out...jia ru be tough~don't believe other ppl believe yourself then enough..nothing is impossible!!!!study hard to earn what i want!!!